okay i'm leaveing all internet sities i'm not jokeing this time i want to be my old self again i want to remember what i was like i want to get out this house and live a little refill my profoilio and get my self sort out...don't bother trying to find me won't be on this sitie

i have to say sorry to i'm sorry i became this monster nothing was your flaut it was this place and me going mad at being trap in my own room and space all this time blameing anyone but me...the real me would feel crap about hurting someone so much and what have i done this doesn't change anything though this is my last time talking to you well saying anything about you as i'm going deleteing all life over the past three years where i became this horrid selfish pig...yeah i admit i only cared about my self without releaseing it something horried just took over what i really am and i blame it on how my life is now and i want to forget it all.

well yeah i did one mistake to far i didn't even myself think that journal was insulting i was a bit mifted about everything but yeah i shoot my self in the foot again like ussual (yeah you have pointed out my one fawl i guess i'm crap when it comes to people i can't handle it) and yeah i have felt it and seen it so much that its kicked my ass into gear sorry about this replay but i'm moveing on and forworred i want to forget it now just toss it aside this bit of my life as taught me what i am....i don't blame anyone but me

yeah i've been waiting for someone to say this to me why you couldn't in perason i don't know but it was what i needed for someone to knock me down a peg and show me once more what i knew years ago before i became blind what i am...i cant even forgive myself nevermind other i stuggle. the internet its self was the wrost thing that ever happened to me i wish i never knew about it its ruin everything i was before its destoryed me and let me destory your life with it. this is ripping me apart as i don't know how to handle anything anymore i don't have real life friends and the internet was all i had...